by the way, welcome June! Wish you'll give me more happiness, no more tears and no more disappointed things again. Well, i have so many disappointed things last month, sick, and a lot tears. I just wanna see my face smilling again like before.Honestly, i want the old things come back to my life. all the happy things, even its not come from a lovely people, at least i can feel that happiness and that smile. but i can't repeat it again, right? i have lose something important in my life, i have lose something or maybe i can tell it "someone" in my life. but what can i do, huh? well, let it go, people say. but its not as easy as they told me. i have to try it and never give up, i have to let it go from my life forever, i mean......i'm not really lose "it", those thing not really missing. i still can see it even feel it............................i can't explain it who or what. I only wish the best for me in this month and next month and next year maybe? :) AMIN!

hey! i love this song so badly! do you? especially this lyric!

Taylor Swift - The Story Of Us 

" How'd we end up this way? See me nervously pulling at my clothes and trying to look busy, And you're doing your best to avoid me. I'm starting to think one day I'll tell the story of us, How I was losing my mind when I saw you here, But you held your pride like you should've held me. Oh, I'm scared to see the ending, Why are we pretending this is nothing? I'd tell you I miss you but I don't know how, I've never heard silence quite this loud "